True BeautyTrue beauty

You take one look at me
And call me fat
And ugly.
You look down
On someone
Just because
They're gay.
You beat up
The really smart
Kids in your class
And then demand them
To finish your homework
When you should've finished it
Yesterday.
You see a kid
With autism
And call them a retard
And put them down,
Even though they're
People too.
You look at yourself in the mirror,
Or look at your muscles,
Not caring that you're
Living a life of vanity
And selfishness.
The sad thing is,
You don't realize
That maybe the
Smart kids
Who do your homework
Everyday
Will become your boss.
Maybe the gay kid
You beat u

Just The Way You AreDo you ever feel that you stand out:
like a white feather would on a crow?
Do you ever feel that you're different:
a weed in a flowerbed struggling to grow?

Do you ever feel that you're moving in the wrong direction?
Fighting against the tide, battling the flow.
Do you ever feel left out:
a bird left behind because it's flying much too slow?

Have you ever felt a little useless:
a light bulb that's losing all its glow?
Fading into blackness, alone,
Not knowing where to go.

If you ever feel any of these things,
and are sad, lonely, feeling different and low,
If you ever feel that you don't belong
I just want you to know...

That

i can't take itI have rivers pouring out of my eyes
The tears won't stop but that's no surprise
For the past week I could barley sleep
And I rarely chose to eat

Why do I waste my time pretending?
I know there's no happy ending.
I might as well give up before it gets worse.

It's not like I haven't thought of this before
I just thought something in life was worth living for.
Again I'm wrong. I've already started to break
This is too much for me to take.

My armor shatters to the ground.
My minds so lost it can't be found.
I can hear the voices as they say,
That there is no other way

I try to help but only hurt.
Half the world treats me worse th

Silent trearsWhy does it feel
Like I'm doing wrong?
Why does it feel
Like you don't think me
The exciting person that I was anymore?

Am I still?
Or is life telling you to pass me by..
But you just cant tell me that?
Am I still your angel?
Am I still the only one for you?

Or has someone else
Crept into your heart
And thrown mine out and replaced it?
Or is it just me feeling so alone?
Is it just because I miss you?
Is it just because I miss you being excited
To talk to me every day?

In any case... please tell me..
Even if it rips me apart...
So I can know if I have to let you go..
Or so I can know what I'm hurting
About something my

Saying GoodbyeI touched her reflection in the water,
It rippled, making waves
A tear rolled down my cheek and dripped into the pool.
My scarred arms were shaking hard,
Memories of her raced through my mind,
Her happy
Sad
Angry
Thoughtful
Smiling.
But she was no more.
I had taken her place¡¦
I was going to miss this girl,
This girl who used to be me
I didn¡¯t want her to go, I wanted to her to stay,
Reclaim her rightful place
But she¡¯d moved on to another life.
Leaving this part of her behind.
So I said goodbye to her,
Goodbye to myself,
And slipped into the waiting Darkness.

30 Reasons Why I Love Myself30 Reasons Why I Love Myself

1) I love my dark brown, almost black, hair.

2) I love my naturally tanned skin.

3) I love my will to help others.

4) I love that other people can trust me, even people I don't really get along with.

5) I love how my loved ones know that I love them even when I don't say it.

6) I love my musical voice.

7) I love how inspiration for art comes easy to me.

8) I never try to hurt anyone's feelings.

9) I always try to avoid offending others.

10) I always keep an open mind to new ideas.

11) I don't mind my flaws such as my loud voice and slow mind.

12) Insults never bother me.

13) I love it when people tell

Why Does it Hurt?

Why does it hurt?

Why does it ache~

Every little move I make?

Is there a reason?

I'm sure there is

It wouldn't just hurt like this ...

Right?

So please tell me ...

Please tell me why~

I always feel I need to cry

Though crying doesnt do much at all

It just feels a little better when the tears fall

But y'know ... just crying isn't enough

You need someone there~

When it gets tough

Please ...

Promise me you'll be there ...

Always there~

With a prayer

And I promise you

I'll be there too

HappyI want to feel alive,
I want to feel alright.
I want to feel delightful,
I want to feel wonderful.
I want to feel free,
I want to feel like you do, you see.

I just want to feel happy.

love is evol.A quick swipe, not quite enough. It takes a whole minute for the faint red line to show. Too long, too long. Not enough, certainly not enough. No, the pain is coming back. It's coming back too fast, you remember the words, the face, the pain, the feeling - that horrible horrible horrible feeling that will never leave you. It will haunt you, haunt you, haunt you until the day you die. Never will you feel clean again, or feel safe. All you will ever feel is violated beyond repair. Broken is what you are. Fucked up, literally.

No, press harder, take another swipe. Slight pain, not enough. Take another before the red even shows, quickly before y

StarvingI eat because I'm not hungry
I starve because I am
Clean hands are always dirty
It's all just an honest sham

I'm happiest when I cry
I do my best when I don't try
I love her 'cause she hates me
I am because I can't be

Warm blood flows through skin stone cold
I listen to what I'm not told
I close my eyes when I'm cognizant
Wide open when the world seems distant

I'm smart because I don't know
Watering a rose that will never grow
I know where I am when I am lost
I love the warmth of winter's frost

I often finish before I start
Listening to the beat of a lifeless heart
Giving things I don't posses
Terrifying the brave and fearl

I may seem strongI may seem strong to you
You - those who know me on deviantart
You - also those who know my close in real life

I may seem strong to you
Because you know my invisible scares
Because you know about the time where my smile had been lost

I may seem strong to you
But I am weak
I am hidding myself
Trying to run away from reality
Trying to be invisible

I cry.
Not too often but sometimes.
Crying isn't weakness.
Crying is a sign of life.
I live.

Why do I hide?
Why do I hide?
Hidding is weakness...

I am 15.
I am alife.
And only from ashes a phoenix can arise...

What do you think?
Can I show my face?
Can I exist in their minds?

While she sleeps....I can't take the fear...

When shadows smile at me, the wind calls out my name...those ghosts we fight for years flashing trough my eyes...

Trembling hands and hidden scars, as strange warm waves float trough my body.

I shiver, and feel heat, all at once.

Are you there?...I'm frightened. I can't explain it and I don't know why....

I hear you breathing, your lips move...that sweet way the dim lights emphasize your hips, your lovely silhouette...

And I'm still afraid.

It's alright, if you leave me...we all die someday.

It's alright, if the shadows get me, if the voices and the ghosts never let go...

....we all go insane, eventually.

So

Best Friends Death BedsIf you go down then take me too
I said I'd always be there for you
And I'm not about to make that a lie
Despite the tears that loved ones cry

If you think death will help you escape
Then it'll have to work for me
Because if you think I can live
Without you then you simply cannot see.

Slice your wrists then slice mine too
With the very same knife
Watch us both bleed out on the ground
The ground bleeds on us versus vice

Shoot yourself in the head
You'll have to shoot me first
And if we do end up dead
Then shall our graves be cursed.

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That your dreams are your reality
and that you can live your dreams.
Fall into a world where every moment is crystle clear and bright.
Feel the way you wish you could
like in the stories you read at night.
The characters are your peers now,
You can love or leave them any way you like
and yet it doesn't matter how.
Get involved,have no fears.
Make friends , and lovers
get in fights, Shed some tears.
But once all is said and done
you're still just you
and it's not as fun.
I spend so much time trying to lose myself,
that I get so caught up in my dreams
that I truly want to be somebody else.
It's just fiction they say, they say that "all stories end".
They'll ask me why I care so much,
It's because when the story is over "I'd still rather play pretend"

The EndThere was no happy ending.
There were no wedding bells.
There was no taste of heaven
Just me going through hell.
I had a noose around my neck.
I had to cut the rope.
I had to go free.
If I didn't do so, there would be no hope.
For once I was selfish, I didn't think of you.
So I cut my rope and ran away
I know I left you all alone,
but I lived to see another day.
I know that I had hurt you
I'm sorry if you cried,
but if hadn't left you
I surely would have died...
So now you are bitter
and I feel little pain.
Now your angry and sad
and I still get to be sane
I wish it could have been different
I wish I could still call you friend
but you look at me as if I were an illness.
So I guess this is "The End"....

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by ~lolohe, Dec 12, 2011, 7:17:37 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Songs & Lyrics

I'm so sick of this place
and the scares upon my face just from living
There's no reason to go on yet I sing this stupid song
and the pain keeps giving

But now the clock strikes 4
and I can't take no more
I wanna end it all
but then I see the picture that hangs up on my wall

You keep me moving on!
Never go away.
Without you I'd be gone.
There would be no reason left to stay.
So remember everything I do, is living for you

There was no reason to live this life
ending each damn day in strife
Bleeding cuts deep in my skin
waiting for life to begin.

But now the clock strikes 4:44
and I can't take no more
I simply wanna end it all
but then I see the picture that hangs up on my wall

You keep me moving on!
Never go away.
Without you I'd be gone.
There would be no reason left to stay.
So remember everything I do, is living for you

The time comes for my suicide
to break the heart that tried to hide
but I'm not going anywhere
That pain would be too much for you to bear
So I'll keep living in pain each day
because I know you want for me to stay
I'll die inside each day that I'm not free
Maybe one day I'll live for me.....

Now the clock strikes 5,
I'm still alive, a new day has begun
I'll see my friends, delay my end
Then start waiting for the sun

You keep me moving on!
Never go away.
Without you by my side
I never would have stayed
Despite the things I say
Despite anything I do
remember that when I live, I only live for you.

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I'm going through a lot right now; and no matter what I try and do and can't stand myself or my life; There are many times I wanted to end it all and there is only one thing keeping me from doing it.....My friends and family. It's not that they can make my life worth living for me(I'm not sure anything can) though they are the closest things I have to a reason. The reason is that I don't want them to have to go through the pain of me committing suicide and ever thinking it was their fault! I can't put them through that! So this poem is exactly that, the thoughts I have for living for someone Else's benefit and the reason I'm still alive today.

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~Firestar47 Dec 15, 2011 Hobbyist Photographer

crap....
that is honestly me right now. literally.
One of my bff's (who i also happen to be hopelessly in love with) has kind of moved away from us. I can no longer sleep, and it feel's as if new weight is being added each and every day.
Slowly he's coming back and acting more friendly and the way he used to, in fact today was normal. Hopefully, things will be better soon

~lolohe Dec 15, 2011 Hobbyist Artist

I wish you the best of luck and hope for you're future

~Firestar47 Dec 15, 2011 Hobbyist Photographer

right back at you hon

~lolohe Dec 15, 2011 Hobbyist Artist

sorry for getting blood everywhere.....

~Firestar47 Dec 16, 2011 Hobbyist Photographer

^_~
its ok hon
...im sorry for hugging you to death...

~lolohe Dec 16, 2011 Hobbyist Artist

it's fine ^3~

~alittlebitoffaith Dec 14, 2011

and ths explains me i only live for this guy i'm completely in love with. but he don't know i feel bout him

~lolohe Dec 14, 2011 Hobbyist Artist

I'm very sorry but grasp onto any happiness you can get, Love is one of the few things in this world I try to believe in but if you want someone to talk to I'm here

~alittlebitoffaith Dec 17, 2011

thank u very much

i appreciate tht

~lolohe Dec 17, 2011 Hobbyist Artist

sure thing

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